Pain is just weakness that leavs the body.(Rose)

[Madey(Hatter)]

She shook her dome not wanting to deal with it for the moment. What was she becoming? Attacking helpless brutes she had no reason to attack in the first place. She shook her dome not wanting to think about it. Her looked at her reflection in the water and sighed. “What is happening to me?” She asked herself in her thoughts and out loud, she must be going crazy…She’s talking to herself! She never talks to herself. She growled at herself. Even her reflection didn’t show the real her, she noticed the blood of the brute still on her muzzle.

She hit her reflection in the water and snarled, lips curled over her teeth, faint wrinkles started to form on her nose line. She closed her eyes as she lowered her haunches in a sitting position. Her tail wrapped around her hind leg and rested on her back paw. Sharp black talons scraped the earth as she looked at herself once again, the fresh blood on her shoulder from when the brute sank his own fangs in her shoulder. She huffed, she deserved that. She deserved more than that. Golden green orbs then studied the old battle scars on her muzzle, belly, neck, back. She laughed at herself.

Old memories flooded her thoughts, pictures of Souless and her pups and her. family also popped up like a slide show, but it all seemed to rest on him…She closed her eyes in pain, water started to form in them as on slid down to the end of her nose and dripped into the water, making a *Bloop* sound. She took a breath and lowered her body until her belly was against the ground, apparently in a laying position. She laid her chin on her front paws as some more tears started to roll down her cheek. ‘What’s wrong with me?’ she asked, but this time only in her thoughts.

[gingerelicutter]

Nothing is wrong with you, Alue
Nothing at all
You have been tramatized
Your family blocked you out.
But that is the past
Do you wish to Forget it?
Do you want to loose the pain and live on?
That, is how I will help you
Will you let me help you?

[Madey(Hatter)]

When the voice made it’s way to her thoughts she took a breath and looked down at her reflection again, was it just her or was there a wolf whispering in her ear? She squinted her eyes at her reflection.. She took a breath and nodded. ‘Yes…I want to forget it. I want to forget everything, the pain, the…love, everything…It haunts me everyday…If you can help me, how can you help me forget it…Help me move on? I tried a thousand times….’ She thought to herself shaking her dome as she did so.

She didn’t know what to do, memories of her past once again rummaged through her head. Could she ever move on? She hasn’t had a mate for a year…A year! Souless found one right off the bat! And it was with the fae she though he started to love more than her. She shook her dome, he said that, that was a lie…But, if it was…Then how could he have had a mate the second she left him…He didn’t even come in…She was going to talk to him first…But, he just…left. She couldn’t think bad of Souless, she never could hurt him. if she did it was never on purpose… She took another crackling breath.

Blood still trickled down her shoulder, she wasn’t in the mood to clean it, she didn’t care if she did bleed to death, most of the times she wished she were dead, just so she could be with him…With Souless. She had nothing here…No happiness. She wanted to be alphess so she could get her mind off of things, but another fae got it, and when she first spotted her. She was scared of her! The alphess was scared of her.

[gingerelicutter]

Alue, how I will help you
How I will save you
Is that I will instruct you
Follow my instructions
And you will be Alphaess
No, you will be ruler
Of this land
Of the Wild Lands
Of everything
Alue, when we are done
No one will cause you any more pain
I just need you to recite these words
'Nech diabol príde nažive'

Alue
Alue, don't say it
It hurts, when you need me
And I, can't break your fall
It hurts, that you can't see
It hurts

-Lol, don't say the words! When she says the words, he'll do that thing where ne nearly kills her and comes to life. Have her say the words near the end of our plot.
It says 'Let the devil come alive' in Solvak, but she doesn't know that. xP

[Madey(Hatter)]

The thought in her head made her feel a bit better, but she left the wild lands…and she won’t be going back. She knew that for sure, she was done with everything there, though she would visit here and there. Only to visit her friends and everything and Hellfire, making sure he is alright and made it through with his pack and to make sure Misty, is doing well with her new rank.

Alue thought about the evil voice in her head for a few moments, though to her it didn’t sound evil…Notmal, but not evil. She took a breath still looking at her reflection. ‘That’s all I have to say?’ She asked tilting her head to the side as she asked the question in her thoughts. It didn’t seem that it would do any damage just to say a few words. She chuckled. Just say those words and everything will go away, the pain…Everythng. A smile was placed across her maw, but it still wasn’t her smile…It was a malicious unknown smile.

“Nech-“ She was stopped by another voice…A familiar husky voice…It was as if her life wanted it to speak again, the familiar voice that used to whisper in her auds ‘I love you…’ Her auds pricked as she moved her head around looking for where the voice came from. ‘Souless?’ She thought then said it outloud remembering he couldn’t read her thoughts. “Souless?” She asked her lyrics crackled.

[gingerelicutter]

Alue, it is a trick of your mind.
These people have traumatized you to much
You hear that voice
See how much pain it brings?
It is most definatly your pain speaking
Don't give in
Don't listen to it


Alue
It's me
And no need to speak aloud
I hear you
Don't listen to him, Alue

[Madey(Hatter)]

Alue got mote confused each time the voices talked to her. This was weird. Now Souless was in her head. What was going on? Was this some dirty joke of the gods? Or a trick of fate? She growled at the thought. Hasn’t she been through enough? Now she has to deal with voices in her head that is telling they can make it better. She huffed, she couldn’t have made it better than who could?

When the voice spoke again saying it was just her own pain in that whisper she tilted her head to the side. ‘How is that possible though? Pain can’t talk.’ Her voice sounded confused. What was going on? She had no idea. She didn’t even know what to do. If the other voice was Souless then how come she heard him? Wasn’t he mad at her…This was too much to take down. Though at the same time she didn’t want to stop his familiar voice, she wanted it to continue, it made her feel at peace. That she was once again at her side

Then his voice came in her thoughts. ‘Souless…’ Even her thought sound seemed to crackle. She shook the sound away she didn’t like the sound of it, it sounded fake to her, though was it really Souless? Why would the other voice say it wasn’t and this one that sounds exactly how she remembered his voice to be sound like him. She took a breath. ‘Is this some big joke…What’s going on?!’ Her eyes seemed to narrow, why was she hearing voices all of a sudden why her?

She watched the blood trickle down her leg. Deep scratch marks that were also bloody covered her maw, neck, back, belly, and chest. She shook her dome at the site. Another fight, she could have easily killed him. Though it felt as if she gotten herself out of a trance. Was there something trying to control her body.

[gingerelicutter]

Of course pain doesn't talk
But pain is in your mind, your soul
You are imagining the voice
It feeds the pain

Alue, this is no joke
It's me
Don't listen to him

[Madey(Hatter)]

‘This makes no sense!!!!!!!!!’ She yelled in her thoughts! ‘If my pain makes me think of Souless, which is possible I every way, then how the h3ll did I think of you voice? I don’t know you.’ She arched a brow waiting for the reply of the unfamiliar voice. This was getting out of hand, this was getting stupid and ridiculous. ‘Who should I believe?’ she asked herself, even though it wasn’t directed to the voices she knew they would answer themselves anyway.

Then Souless’s voice came in her thoughts. She took a breath, every time it made her heart race and skip a beat. She couldn’t have made this one up…She couldn’t have his voice sound this familiar. She knew she couldn’t…Could there be someone else…Trying to mimic his voice. There was only one way to find out. ‘If you really are Souless, tell me one thing that only Souless and I know.’ She knew no one could read her thoughts, so no one could take it away from that category.

It was sad, she couldn’t remember anything happy anymore. She couldn’t even think about being happy anymore, and she knew if it was really Souless, he could feel her pain…He could see what it did to her when she thought about her pups, family....and him. Was she going mad? Was she making these voices up? Were they all in her head? She didn’t understand any of it. And why are these voices happening to her? Out of all the wolves in the fucking universe why her?

[gingerelicutter]

Alue, I am real.
I am here to help you
he is a figment of your imagination
he is here to cause you pain

Alue, you were a clutz
You where alphess of Cullen for.. two months
You took Jennesme on a trip to the pack's new lands
It is me

[Madey(Hatter)]

Alue waited for the voices to come to her head…Something was up, there was something going on. A plot, perhaps. If she didn’t know who the other voice was then how could she trust him. When his voice once again filled her head she growled. ‘Well, if he is here to cause me pain, how come I want to keep hearing his voice…And anyways, I still don’t know you, and if you are in my head, then you should already know I don’t trust unknown wolves easily.’ She knew what she was talking about.

Then Souless’s soft husky whisper filled her head. She took a breath enjoying the sound on his voice once again. ‘I believe you, and if this is my imagination…Then I did a good job thinking of you.” She didn’t know what to believe, she knew only Souless’s family would know about her bringing Jennesme to visit the other lands with her father. She knew all that, she just had to ask him one more question to make her feel a bit better. “Are you still mad at me?” She asked out loud on accident. ‘Oops.’ She then said in her head. She shook her dome, she knew he could still hear her. She wanted to know, was he still mad at her. She needed to know, had to know.

At the moment the other voice started to get on a faint nerve of hers. Though it would leave shortly if the wolf did end up helping her towards the end. She needed to forget, if Souless was part of her imagination, then how was she supposed to move on? It was mating season and she had been without a mate for about a year now, but she couldn’t see herself with anyone else besides him. She took a breath and looked at her wounds. Not tending to them, she knew it could infect if she didn’t take care of it, but she didn’t care. Who care’s what she looks like? who cares how many nightmares she has? Who cares if she wakes up crying in the middle of the night, hoping her sadness was a dream and Souless was right next to her to comfort her? … No one.

[gingerelicutter]

But the voices had stopped. All in her head was her own memories, her own thoughts, no trace of those voices whispering sweet nothingness into her head. Although the wind blew around her, and a cackling, mumbling sound said,
You do not trust me, Alue
If you do not trust me,
I cannot help you
I was going to bring him back
The real Souless
Not that voice in your imagination
The reason he knew all those things
Was because YOU knew it
He was your pain, your mind
But you cannot trust me
I cannot bring the real Souless back
Unless you trust me
I will speak with you tomorrow

Then it left her with nothing but bitter silence

[Madey(Hatter)]

She didn’t know what to do, she couldn’t think right with the voices in her head and everything. What should she do? Then the voice came back, but he didn’t sound very happy. When he said he could bring the real Souless back her eyes widened.‘YOU CAN!’ she sounded excited now, she didn’t want to think anything through about that, she had to see Souless. She wanted to be with Souless…

‘I can trust you.’ She said with a wide look in her eyes. She didn’t know how she couldn’t it he was here to help her erase the pain and bring Souless back to her. Her tail swayed behind her as she thought for a few moment trying to think of a catch. Though what would a voice want? She shrugged. Probably nothing. She thought to herself and sighed.

When he said he will talk to her tomorrow she growled faintly. ‘Oh, now you leave me hanging.’ She huffed and sighed. How could he bring Souless back? Was that even possible? What was going on. She wanted her own pack, she wanted to make her own rules, not fallow them.