What about us? I don't.... {Alue}

[Credo.degli.Assassini ♫]

xXx--

I'm sitting here alone, what else could I have done?
I can't regret 'cause I don't even know what I did wrong
Freedom died with you
I'm searching for myself
I wanna feel alive

xXx--

[glow=red,2,300]Remember....[/glow]

The smell of a familiar wolf drifted through the wind. A brute, no doubt. The soft padding on his feet touching the ground echoed through the air, filling the air around him. His coat was painted a brilliant array of colors ranging from grey, to tan, to even a light white. Yes, he was back to the old brute. The one you used to know. He doesn't remember The Wild Lands. He doesn't remember any one that ever meant anything to him. Alue...Myah...Ryan. No one. He didn't remember them. He simply couldn't. Something happened....something terrible. Perhaps a side effect Hellfire's assault had on him. Something happened....what ever it was, he would never gain that knowledge again. He'll never know who his family is. Who his friends were...it was a fresh start for him, actually. A rather sad way to start it, but a fast start all together.

This place is very strange...very strange indeed. Torro thought, his gold optics glancing about the area. Those big, round disks mounted atop his poll were swiveling, trying to collect data about the area. His muscles rippled underneath his shaggy coat. He wasn't as muscular as Ezio, but he was close to it. Hey! Wanna know the resemblence between them? Ezio and Torro are both players. Rather good ones at that. Torro glanced about, and then decided to head toward the river. He slowly made his way to the edge, and lapped the water up slowly. Savoring the cool feeling it blessed his sore throat and tongue with. He even decided to take a quick dip to cool his slightly weary body down. The baron took another glimpse around, before slowly moving out of the water.

With a look of satisfaction, he walked over to the nearest tree, and collapsed on the soft green tendrils of grass. He idly started to chew on the grass, pulling a few blades up by the roots, but then spitting it out. With a bored expression, he looked around once more.

xXx--

Leaving you for me, (what about us)
Try to understand
That I'm only leaving you for me
(Are you trying to hurt me?)
Demons in my head
They won't let go

[glow=red,2,300]A Player....[/glow]

[Madey(Hatter)]

She shook her dome not wanting to deal with it for the moment. What was she becoming? Attacking helpless brutes she had no reason to attack in the first place. She shook her dome not wanting to think about it. Her looked at her reflection in the water and sighed. “What is happening to me?” She asked herself in her thoughts and out loud, she must be going crazy…She’s talking to herself! She never talks to herself. She growled at herself. Even her reflection didn’t show the real her, she noticed the blood of the brute still on her muzzle.

She hit her reflection in the water and snarled, lips curled over her teeth, faint wrinkles started to form on her nose line. She closed her eyes as she lowered her haunches in a sitting position. Her tail wrapped around her hind leg and rested on her back paw. Sharp black talons scraped the earth as she looked at herself once again, the fresh blood on her shoulder from when the brute sank his own fangs in her shoulder. She huffed, she deserved that. She deserved more than that. Golden green orbs then studied the old battle scars on her muzzle, belly, neck, back. She laughed at herself.

Old memories flooded her thoughts, pictures of Souless and her pups and her. family also popped up like a slide show, but it all seemed to rest on him…She closed her eyes in pain, water started to form in them as on slid down to the end of her nose and dripped into the water, making a *Bloop* sound. She took a breath and lowered her body until her belly was against the ground, apparently in a laying position. She laid her chin on her front paws as some more tears started to roll down her cheek. ‘What’s wrong with me?’ she asked, but this time only in her thoughts.

Then a familiar scent tickled her nostrils, she rose her dome from its rest and then rose her body from the laying position into a standing. She huffed as the strong scent still filled her nose. She knew it was a brute…Torro. Was the first thing that came to mind, she then started to pad towards the smell where it was strongest. When it was getting too strong it started to sting. She sneezed when she took in the scent too strongly. Memories of him then started to go through her mind. She sighed and padded quietly to him, her orbs caught movement in the water, there he was…She chuckled to herself as she studied him.

She then padded down towards the water, when his back was turned before he got out. She was on the other side of it with a raised brow. “Well, it seems as if I lost my thirst” She seemed to joke as she lowered her haunches once again to the ground. Golden green orbs focusing on him, she wasn’t cautious around him, she wasn’t scared of him, he should be mad at her…She was preparing herself for the uproar. Blood still trickled from her wounded should, though she did manage to clean the blood of the other brutes before coming, though since it was a recent fight, her blood was still heavy.

[Credo.degli.Assassini ♫]

xXx--

I'm sitting here alone, what else could I have done?
I can't regret 'cause I don't even know what I did wrong
Freedom died with you
I'm searching for myself
I wanna feel alive

xXx--

[glow=red,2,300]Remember...[/glow]

--

Torro's crown snapped up at the fae spoke. He looked over her, cocking his head to the side. She spoke as if she knew him. Well, if she did, he didn't know her. Was she a stalker? Why was she wounded? Was she okay? What did she mean by the thirst is gone? He shook his crown, and stood, those brilliant gold chasms fogged with confusion. "I'm sorry, but you must have me confused with some one else..." He muttered finally. His optics looking directly into her own eyes. A slight smile graced his maw, and with a dip of his crown he said "I'm terribly sorry for the confusion miss. Now, would you mind telling me your calling?" He asked, tilting his crown to the side.

He had to chuckle at the fact that she had thought she knew him from somewhere, but alas. That could not be. He would have recongnized a pretty face such as her's from anywhere. He sat back on his haunches, his tail brushing back and forth. Those disks perked forward, listening for more of her sweet, honey filled lyrics to enter the air again. Then again. He thought that about every fae that was beautiful that came along. He was a player to the core. Nothing could change that now. Nothing.

xXx--

Leaving you for me, (what about us)

Try to understand
That I'm only leaving you for me
(Are you trying to hurt me?)
Demons in my head
They won't let go

[glow=red,2,300]The player...[/glow]

[Madey(Hatter)]

She studied him with her normal expression nothing knew. When his familiar lyrics filled his ears she then tilted her head. “No, I know you…” Her lyrics sounded confused. “Torro, stop the joke, I am in no mood for games.” She then narrowed at him. Why would be play these stupid mind games, he knew she hated it. He knew it reminded her of her old friend Rantu when he lost his memory and then Souless when he lost his. She took a breath, when he asked what her calling was she rose her dome once again towards him. “Alue,” was all the escaped her maw.

So he did forget her, she did loose his memory. Out of all the wolves why would it be the one that meant something to her? Why was it always her who had to pay. She needed him, she needed his help…The voices in her head never eased just gained. She took another deep relaxing breath, well at least there was some good parts of this…He didn’t remember the shit she put him through, the time when she told him to get mounted on a wall or you’re dead to me, never would slip his mind again, She sighed in relief.

When he chuckled she focused once again. Golden green eyes focused on him once again. “My apologeeze…I guess I did mistake you…” She shook her dome as she looked down at her large paws. Blood still trickling down her shoulder, streams of blood were now going down her front leg from the deep wound. Fresh scratches were on her maw, belly, and some on her chest. From the brute as he struggled to get himself free from her death grasp. She sighed, as her tail started to pound against her paw.

A faint wind blew passed her as it ruffled her fur. She closed her eyes as the feeling relaxed her. She didn’t know what to do, what would she do without Torro, she remembered his ways when she first met him, charming…Romantic. She held back a smile of the memory when he gave her flowers, or when he first asked her to be his mate when they were attacked by a stupid stallion, she then wanted to laugh of the glorious memories. She knew she would have to make a new start with him, and if that’s what it took to have him in her life again, then so be it. Even though her heart still skipped a beat for him, though Souless would always be her true mate…Torro was like her Jacob….Her heart raced for him as well.

[Credo.degli.Assassini ♫]

xXx--
I'm sitting here alone, what else could I have done?
I can't regret 'cause I don't even know what I did wrong
Freedom died with you
I'm searching for myself
I wanna feel alive
xXx--

[glow=red,2,300]Remember...[/glow]

--

Torro cocked his head to the side as she told him to stop playing games. How was he playing a game? He really didn't know who she was. All he knew was that she was a fae who knew what his name was. That was strange. How did she know? He sighed gently when she told him her name. "Alue...that is a lovely name." He said, flashing her a charming smile, and then looking away for a few moments. He stood up then, and glanced at her, before moving his body into a magnificent bow. His nose touched his outstretched pillar, his whole body arched into the magnificent bow. "I am Torro, as you already said." He smiled slightly, and glanced at her.

It was kinda sad that he had no knowledge of anything. Of where he came from. Who One Moon was, who Saba was. Who Forge, Princess, or Souless were. Souless and he were like, best buds at one point. But that all changed when Souless acttacked Torro. But they had made up after that, didn't they? Torro cleared his throat, and then continued to speak. "Miss, if you don't mind me asking, how did you know who I was? I mean, what my name was?" He asked softly, cocking his head to the side once more.

xXx--
Leaving you for me, (what about us)
Try to understand
That I'm only leaving you for me
(Are you trying to hurt me?)
Demons in my head
They won't let go

[glow=red,2,300]The Player...[/glow]

[Madey(Hatter)]

She could see the confusion on his face and she hid it all too well on hers. Her facial expression was emotionless, not one thing noticeable on it except for a plain look. She didn’t know how to tell him anything, and she knew since she said his name he would be curious how she knew. She tried to think up a good lie that would have him agree, As she thought for a few moments his lyrics filled her auds. She turned her dome towards him and nodded. “Thank you.” Her lyrics was then like satin wrapping around him and pulling him closer, though she didn’t even mean to sound that way, that was just the voice and tone she had when she felt some-what flattered, though she didn’t blush.

Then she thought of the best lie if he asked. She held back a chuckle as she tried to think everything through, this was the first for her. She never really thought anything over. She just said whatever crossed her mind. She thought about saying. ‘I met you a long time ago…Though I wouldn’t expect you to remember me.’ She thought about that one then she thought about the one she was going to say. ‘Ah, the wind whispered it.’ She thought about how both would be affected and decided to go with her first option. When he asked his question she nodded towards him as her lyrics rolled off her tongue like it had before. “I met you long ago, though I wouldn’t expect you to remember me.” She rolled her shoulder in a faint shrug.

She knew that was one thing he would believe he used to always forget things, though this was the old Torro, not the new. This was the heart breaker Torro. She thought for a few moments. Souless is and always will be her true mate. Though he was now gone, and it was mating season. ‘stupid season’ she thought to herself. She huffed and started to think again. She wouldn’t mind toying with a few hearts. What if she toyed with the heart of the brutes who toyed with the fae’s hearts. She couldn’t help but chuckle at that. It has been a year since…his death, and a year she has been mate less, though she would rather be mate less when he wasn’t here to make her feel better.

[Credo.degli.Assassini ♫]

xXx--
I'm sitting here alone, what else could I have done?
I can't regret 'cause I don't even know what I did wrong
Freedom died with you
I'm searching for myself
I wanna feel alive
xXx--

[glow=red,2,300]Remember....[/glow]

He cocked an eyebrow as her voice seemed just to wrap around his form and mind, almost taking all his senses away from him. He shuddered slightly, and then cast his eyes to the ground. Ah, I met you a long time ago, but I don't expect you to remember me. He studied her for a moment, and then nodded his head. That had to be it because he felt like he knew her, but he couldn't place a name on who she was, or anything of the sort. So, he took the liberty of explaining himself. "Oh....I'm terribly sorry. You see, things have happened to me recently. Bad things. I've....well I think I've lost my memory being that I can't remember a damn thing." He shook his head, his jowls clamping shut for a few moments, and then he spoke again. "excuse my languge...It wasn't right of me."

After that apology, he smiled slightly, and stood to his full height, shaking his coat clear of all debris. "Well, I can say that it is a pleasure to meet you again, and I am terribly sorry once again. If there is anything at all that I could do to make up for it, just let me know." He smiled slightly, and then looked away. The screaming started to sound in his mind again. The agony....trying to help out. A rather large he-wolf flashed through his mind. He was a chest nut color, shouting orders to the rest of the wolves, yet they continued to drop like mesquitos being zapped by that blue light thingy. Finally, Torro and he were the last ones standing. He said a few words, and then...it all when black. Torro started, slightly startled. Why did this have to be his only memory of what happened? He didn't know the other wolf in this flash back was. He didn't know who any of they were. Little did he know that he was Souless. And Souless was Alues mate. And not only that, but Souless had asked Torro to deliver a message to Alue...Yet, he couldn't remember.

xXx--
Leaving you for me, (what about us)
Try to understand
That I'm only leaving you for me
(Are you trying to hurt me?)
Demons in my head
They won't let go

[glow=red,2,300]The Player....[/glow]

[Hatter]

She saw the look on his face and knew he felt he knew her. She nodded towards him and took a breath. How was she going to do this without him…He can help her with the pain, he can help with a lot. She thought about that for a few moments when his lyrics interrupted her. “I know you lost your memory…Or you would have known me from far away. I can tell you a lot of things about you and your past…And If it helps I can tell you a bit of mine…I just have to ask…Do you remember anything? Anything at all?” Her lyrics sounded pleading. When he said forgive his language she rolled her eyes. “No one, well I don’t care about language.” She rolled her shoulders in a shrugging way.

She nodded towards him when he said it was a pleasure to meet her again, and if she needed anything just to let him know. “All I need is a friend.” She spoke softly, though the pain was easily detected in her tone. Though he wouldn’t know if it was the pain from her just recent fight or if it was her feeling of pain. If he remembered her he would have known right off the bat, but now he doesn’t. She sighed, she would tell him the good things, the things that were worth remembering. Not the bad, even she doesn’t want to bring up the bad. ‘Go get mounted on a wall!’ She clenched her eyes shut. ‘Your dead to me.’ She couldn’t believe those words came out of her mouth. Even though she knew she still loved him. She sighed as she tried to think.

[Credo.degli.Assassini ♫]

xXx--
I'm sitting here alone, what else could I have done?
I can't regret 'cause I don't even know what I did wrong
Freedom died with you
I'm searching for myself
I wanna feel alive
xXx--

[glow=red,2,300]Remember...[/glow]

Torro watched her for a few moments, wondering how she knew so much about him. How she knew so much about him. Because, if she knew him so well, why didn't he remember her? Who ever wiped his memory this time, wiped it good. He sighed gently, watching her for a few moments. "What good would a story be when I can't remember them for my self. But, if you wish to tell me my past, then go ahead. I'm all ears. He smiled softly, and fell silently, waiting for her to start speaking. To tell him about his past that he couldn't remember, but tried so desperately to. Nothing could really spark his memory. Nothing could take away the pain he remembered. Because that was the only thing he could remember. Was the pain. The horrible pain that seemed to always be there, lurking in the back of his mind.

When she said that all she needed was a friend, his heart dropped. Sank. He felt...horrible now. He nodded his dome, and said just as soft as a tone as hers "Well then, call me your friend. I'll be there..." He smiled, his gold orbs dancing around with the truth, and curiousity. Curiousity in what had happened, and the truth for what he spoke. He would be her friend. He was her friend already, whether she knew it or not. She seemed...fragile. Trying to put up a front that wasn't really there. Or how she actually felt. He didn't blame her though. He was sure that if he had gone through all the pain that she had gone through, he would be feeling the same way. Putting up a mask, and hiding the pain. Or at least trying to. Hiding all emotions. Happiness, hate, love, anger. It was the only way to protect yourself sometimes. And this was one thing that he knew beyond a doubt. Only because he had come across so many others that were just like that. Now, he fell silent, and waited for her to speak.

xXx--
Leaving you for me, (what about us)
Try to understand
That I'm only leaving you for me
(Are you trying to hurt me?)
Demons in my head
They won't let go

[glow=red,2,300]The Player...[/glow]

[Madey(Hatter)]

She laid down, favoring her shoulder as she put all her weight in her paws. She lowered herself onto her belly, a huff escaped her maw when she finally made it. She looked back up to Torro when he spoke. She nodded he was right. “Well, if you don’t want me to share, I won’t.” Her lyrics were soft. She still wondered why he didn’t answer her question. What did he remember? She asked herself, this time in her head. Though he forgot about he, she didn’t forget about him, and she knew when something was bothering him. She tilted her head to the side “Are you ok?” She asked in a curious tone.

When she said friend she saw his face drop she then looked really confused. “Why do you look so sad?” She asked as she laid her head on her paws. She didn’t understand. No one liked her except for Souless, either that. Or that is what she wants to believe, she doesn’t know what to do anymore. She doesn’t know what to do with Torro now that he can’t remember her and their past. She sighed as she stopped wagging her tail. It curled around her, and the end of her tail rested on her paw. She could see that he did understand her pain, even though he doesn’t know the reasons. She gazed at her shoulder wound which was bleeding a bit more, which started to weaken her. She growled silently as the pain started to increase. She lifted her dome and started to clean her wound. Her upper lip twitched when she really wanted to growl in pain.

[Credo.degli.Assassini ♫]

Torro shook his head, and said "No, no. Go ahead, and share. I was just saying I'm not sure how much of it would help." He explained, smiling slightly at he looked away from her. He could tell that she was in pain. In a lot of pain, actually. He winced, watching her for a few moments before walking over, and pressing his nose to her cheek. Friendly, of course. Trying to comfort her. "It'll all work out. I promise. Go ahead and tell me my past if you would like." He smiled softly, and then drew away, sitting back on his haunches.

--NO MUSE! OH NO!

[Madey(Hatter)]

She thought for a few moments when he spoke. She didn’t know what to share. She took a breath and started. “I met you a long time ago, I was new to the lands and you helped me out a lot, at the time you were in love with a fae named Myah, Myah and I were major enemies…” She let out a faint chuckle. “You ended up leaving her and started to fall in love with a fae named Rayn, but for some reason Rayn was with another brute named Dark poison, then you fell in love with me. You toyed with a lot of fae’s hearts and mine for a while, then you left me for Rayn when she left Dark, but you shortly came back to me. Don’t ask me why I have yet to know. You have two daughters…One Moon and Neige, Saba is another, but she is adopted and I was with you when I took her in.” She took a pained breath when she said their names. “One Moon left, Neige was murdered…and Saba was killed giving birth to a forcer’s pups…” She sighed holding back tears then continued.

“Then you and I got in a huge argument…For reasons I can’t recall. So that was the end of it. Though you and I continued to be best friends, you helped me out when I found another mate…His name was Souless, he was a large chest-nut looking brute. Anyway, I joined their pack and you joined as well, After two years with Souless him and I had three pups…Jennesme, Balile, and Solue. A year after that I didn’t see him much, he was always gone, and I thought he found someone else, so I left him so he could have a chance to be with the one he truly loves…He was enraged and kicked me out of his pack and out of my home. I was then a loner and our pups visited me then him, Balile and Solue were with Souless and his family, I was taking Neige and Jennesme to visit Souless, I had to leave because I was still banned. Though everything started to get better, Souless and I were starting to make up again…When I went back to the lands….” She clenched her eyes shut in pain. “Every one around me were talking about a murder...I was last to know, My whole family were murdered…And I can’t do anything about it.”

“I thought you were dead as well, since you were part of the pack, but you came back… You helped me out a bit with everything…Then you joined another pack called Underdoor, I joined a different pack called Hell’s Realm… Let’s just say after that, I wasn’t myself…I’m not really myself today either… but I took off, and now you are here in front of me, while I am trying to explain to you everything in you past.” She shook her dome. She was going to say that she still loved him, but was it still worth it? He didn’t remember her, so it would be like telling him she loved him for the first time. She didn’t know what to do.

When he nudged her with his nose she closed her eyes and rested her dome on her paws again, waiting for his reply, wondering if she just wasted her breath on explaining everything. He was at the fight, he survived…She still wondered if Souless was alive, and if he was then who was talking to her in her head, she swore it was him…Though the other whisper said it was her pained conscious talking to her, which also made sense to her. She wasn’t herself…And hasn’t been ever since the murder.

[Credo.degli.Assassini ♫]

He was a big chestnut wolf... That wolf that he was fighting with had to had been Souless! Her mate....He shook his head, looking down for a bit as she continued to talk. Torro had been one of the few to see him still alive, and be alive themselves. And when she mentioned all the times he went from Alue to Rayn, he shook his head. No. No way, that couldn't be true! It just couldn't! Could it? He sucked in a deep breath, and looked at the ground, not speaking long after she finished speaking. Finally, he said "So....I bounced around from fae to fae....asking them to be my mate....and everything like that?" He asked, shaking his head. Not wanting to believe it. Not knowing how to believe. Not even sure if he was capable of believeing it. He had rule: Play with their hearts, don't destroy them. Which was why you were to never ask a fae to be yours. Ever. Not if you were a player like he was. It wasn't right...it just wasn't. He looked up at her, and sighed gently. "I'm so sorry Alue....so sorry...." He muttered, keeping his gaze on the terra.

[Madey(Hatter)]

She studied his expressions as she told her little story. She didn't know why she told him, but she felt the need he had to know. Though she did leave out what she said to him and everything when they got into the last fight when they were mates last. She didn't want him to remember that, it was pain enough to remember it herself, sometimes she even wished she was the one who had forgotten her past and who she was, then at least she would have a fresh start. She sighed and looked up at him.

When his lyrics filled her auds, she rolled her shoulders in a faint shrug. "I wouldn't say exactly like that, you knew me, Rayn, and Myah very well...I mean like extremely well. Though I didn't blame you when you left me for her, you and I got in a lot of arguments and one time it ended in a fight." She shook her dome in remembrance. "Though it was the past, let me just say you are lucky not to remember everything, and it's OK. No need to apologize..." Then she remembered the look on is face when she mentioned Souless. She tilted her head to the side. "Do you remember anything, of Souless?" She asked, she didn't want to pain him, but she wanted...No, needed to know.

[Credo.degli.Assassini ♫]

He could remember the scene like it was yesterday. Wolves were screaming in agony, many begging Torro and Souless to help, but they were busy trying to stay alive as well. Souless had told Torro earlier that he didn't understand why she left him. Souless said that he loved her. Souless said that he would have died for her, but once she left him, he became enraged that she thought that he was cheating on her with another wolf. Torro looked to Alue, and slowly took a breath. "I remember the fight...I remember how Souless and I were fighting beside each other. Souless...he had said that he never understood why you had left. He said that he loved you. He said that he wished you would have just understood that.... He shook his head. It was horrible that this was the only memory he held of Souless. The only one. Him bleeding...telling Torro to tell Alue this. And he hadn't. God...He shook his dome, and said "That's what he wanted me to tell you. That he loved you, and always would love you. That nothing you did could stop that love from blossoming.He said that he wished he could be there to break your fall once you found out about us. He said that it hurt more than dying...." And with that, he bowed his dome, taking a deep breath. He couldn't talk anymore. It was painful for him, and it was probably a lot more painful for her. Painful for him because he hadn't told her a long time ago. He didn't, because he didn't remember. Until now. He could remember the whole battle scene. Recite it from beginning to end. And that sucked. It really did.